The Wait

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 For a long time, I met guys whose beliefs were so different from my own. This led to thinking that I may be single forever or I'd have to settle with someone who judges my views on spirituality or constantly feels the need to watch their back because my cultural practices make them anxious.


As a hopeless romantic, this bothered me. Not a day would go by without me wondering if I will ever fall in love. I wrote about it more than I wrote about anything else and things remained the same. I think I got to a point where I stopped working on other things in my life and focused so much on educating men about African Spirituality and beliefs. I was committed to this. I was more committed to this than I was to my studies and dreams.


It took giving up for me to meet someone whom I didn't have to teach a thing. Someone with similar beliefs. Someone who understands. 


Read this again; it took giving up for me to meet someone whom I didn't have to teach a thing.


I firmly believe that when you accept defeat, and realise that you're not in control, the universe rewards you. This is when things fall into place for you. You realise that worrying over situations causes delay and that letting go of everything you cannot control, brings you closer to your heart's desires.


I spent 3 years of my life paying close attention to people whom I didn't even have to keep around for one moment, but I met the love of my life only 3 months after completely letting go of my idea of love. And let me tell you, he is everything I have ever prayed for.


Here, I am loved and nurtured. He spends so much time proving to me that he loves me. Through words and through actions. He understands everything I say, even though sometimes I do not speak through words. He understands my beliefs and this is what matters to me more than anything.


My love, I know you're going to see this. I want God and your guides to bless you so greatly that there's an overflow in every aspect of your life. I love you so much and I want you to know - I would wait and wait all over again, if it means having you at the end of it all.


You mean everything and more to me. 

❤️🌠

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